I am typing this while drinking my almost green smoothie! Almost, because I had to add a little chocolate powder to it to make it taste better!
As I officially start tomorrow, today is a trial run, plus shopping day.
I bought a new pair of gym pants yesterday and some bras, which I will test today by going for a run. If they don't fall down while I am running, then I shall buy some more!
Anyway, first things first. My almost green smoothie.
1 frozen banana
1 cup almond milk
2 teaspoons wheat germ
2 teaspoons vital greens powder (basically all the good green veges in powder form)
2 teaspoons benefibre (as an added measure, though I'll be getting plenty of fibre on this diet so that will eventually go)
and LASTLY, because I wasn't a big fan of the taste of this with honey, or with vanilla extract, I added
2 teaspoons of cadbury drinking chocolate, I know, it's not ideal, BUT I will be investing in some high quality chocolate protein powder when I get paid, so that will replace the drinking chocolate (which will be thrown out, or given away).
Yummy!
I have a huuuuuge 'to do' list today, which, if you knew me, wouldn't surprise you at all. I like to be busy and I like to get stuff done.
It's so refreshing to be 100% honest about everything. From my before photos, to my weight, to every single ingredient in what I eat.
For so long I've been so ashamed that I can't tell anyone what I weigh, I substitute ingredients in what I've eaten to sound less bad and I have avoided doing any form of clothes shopping with anyone.
Not anymore, I have embraced the fact that I need larger clothes. For now. I am not even exactly sure what size I am.
My pants range from size 16 - 20, and my tops range from 16 - 24(when I really want a baggy, loose fitting singlet, which I always do for the gym).
With all this honesty, I have decided to finally tell my best friend how much I weigh, seeing as she is part of my support system and will be joining the gym with me.
Anyway, I am off to go for a run (and by run I mean walking, jogging, walking , jogging, walking) to test my new gym pants.
I am starting my 5 day free pass to my new gym of choice tomorrow, I will write all about it when I get home.
Tata for now! x
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Saturday, August 10, 2013
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
The Dreaded Before photos...
So every successful weight loss story begins with some before photos.
These are always highly embarrassing and gives a "How the hell did I let myself get this way" moment to the person in them.
I took my photos yesterday and was NOT happy at all.
*Deep breath* Here they are...
These are always highly embarrassing and gives a "How the hell did I let myself get this way" moment to the person in them.
I took my photos yesterday and was NOT happy at all.
*Deep breath* Here they are...
So, while that is painful sharing that with the world, it gives me something to look at and think "Never again". For the first time I have shared photos with the world instead of locking them away on my computer, never to look at them again.
I won't bother pointing out everything I hate about these photos. It's simple. I want to cut the fat. I want to have a nice back with no rolls, I want a flat stomach and I want to fit into smaller clothes.
The next steps over the next week will be:
Finding old pictures from when I was 18 - 19yrs old and posting them(inspiration).
Buying a new gym wardrobe to feel the part(fake it till you make it).
Writing out my food plan to start on Monday(which I will post).
Joining the gym with my best friend and booking it into my diary.
I will also write up my daily workouts as well, as a record for myself and to keep me accountable.
On a side note, these are my new sports bras in the photo, They are the most comfortable sports bras I have ever owned(especially as someone with bigger breasts). I will be buying more and will describe them in my new gym clothes post.
Monday, August 5, 2013
Research Headaches!
So it's been 2 days since I made the decision to start PT sessions or bootcamp of some kind.
There's not a lot of trainers in my area who I don't know(and I don't really want to train with one I know).
And honestly? The only PT in my area I didn't know was a tiny, skinny little thing who looked like she'd never had a bloated day in her life. Note to future self: When you lose all your excess fat, and you are personal training again, use your before and after shot to help show people you KNOW what it's like.
After much research I have decided to join a gym that offers 6am bootcamp sessions as part of it's group fitness timetable. What a great Idea! This particular gym has just changed into a 24 hour gym as well, and to top it all off, it's in a location I feel quite safe being in at night time.
I have asked my best friend to join me and she has agreed. Although she will only be joining for 3 months, and I will be going for 6 months, I feel that this is enough time to get me back into the swing of things and shift some fat off my body.
Once I hit that 95kg mark, I think I will gain back a little of my gym-savvy confidence. Walking into the free-weights section like I own the place and all! I lost this confidence a while back and it has been the main reason I have avoided the gym, which turns into a vicious cycle of eating badly and not exercising.
I am hoping by that stage I will be fitting back into some size 16 jeans. I would LOVE to wear some nice jeans again for christmas (even though it will be boiling!).
I am really looking forward to getting back that feeling of exercising daily, loving it, enjoying it and looking forward to it! I think having the 24 hour option at my gym will help as well, if I want to go late at night or early in the morning before my own 6am shifts I can!
I am going to have a tour of the facilities Thursday night with my friend and see if we can manage a free week pass to see what it's like.
My fridge, freezer and pantry also had an overhaul today. I threw out everything that was not part of the plan. We will do our food shopping on Thursday, in the meantime, I am going to write up our meal plan.. and yes, I shall post it for all to see.
Complete honesty is the aim of this blog after all. After Thursday I may also start updating my daily 'eats'. I need to be held accountable, and the best way to do that is a food diary, on here, where anyone can see it... yikes!
So that's me signing off for now. More updates coming soon.
There's not a lot of trainers in my area who I don't know(and I don't really want to train with one I know).
And honestly? The only PT in my area I didn't know was a tiny, skinny little thing who looked like she'd never had a bloated day in her life. Note to future self: When you lose all your excess fat, and you are personal training again, use your before and after shot to help show people you KNOW what it's like.
After much research I have decided to join a gym that offers 6am bootcamp sessions as part of it's group fitness timetable. What a great Idea! This particular gym has just changed into a 24 hour gym as well, and to top it all off, it's in a location I feel quite safe being in at night time.
I have asked my best friend to join me and she has agreed. Although she will only be joining for 3 months, and I will be going for 6 months, I feel that this is enough time to get me back into the swing of things and shift some fat off my body.
Once I hit that 95kg mark, I think I will gain back a little of my gym-savvy confidence. Walking into the free-weights section like I own the place and all! I lost this confidence a while back and it has been the main reason I have avoided the gym, which turns into a vicious cycle of eating badly and not exercising.
I am hoping by that stage I will be fitting back into some size 16 jeans. I would LOVE to wear some nice jeans again for christmas (even though it will be boiling!).
I am really looking forward to getting back that feeling of exercising daily, loving it, enjoying it and looking forward to it! I think having the 24 hour option at my gym will help as well, if I want to go late at night or early in the morning before my own 6am shifts I can!
I am going to have a tour of the facilities Thursday night with my friend and see if we can manage a free week pass to see what it's like.
My fridge, freezer and pantry also had an overhaul today. I threw out everything that was not part of the plan. We will do our food shopping on Thursday, in the meantime, I am going to write up our meal plan.. and yes, I shall post it for all to see.
Complete honesty is the aim of this blog after all. After Thursday I may also start updating my daily 'eats'. I need to be held accountable, and the best way to do that is a food diary, on here, where anyone can see it... yikes!
So that's me signing off for now. More updates coming soon.
Sunday, August 4, 2013
Four long years
Firstly, I want to apologise to those who previously commented on my posts.
Life got in the way of my writing and weight loss journey. I haven't been on here in years, and quite frankly, after 6-12 months I forgot I even created this blog. Mostly due to the fact I gained weight, and was busy doing other things like saving to buy our first home and renovating our house.
I really hope everyone else has reached their goals and are living happy fulfilled lives.
My weight loss journey has turned into a weight gain journey and has created problems and worries for me. I am still with my partner of 6 years, who is still personal training. I however, gave up on personal training several years ago due to a high level of embarrassment.
Instead of having a series of inspiring weight loss photos I have a series of photos documenting my weight gain. Along with those I have my first ever stretch marks, unwanted cellulite and a chin that almost touches my chest when I lay down.
I am at my lowest point. I swore I'd never let myself get to this point. Ever. I used to think the more you weighed, the easier it is to lose weight. It is not. It gets harder.
We recently did a detox which included 2 weeks of nothing but fruit and vegetables, introducing some light proteins in week two. On this, I lost 4.5kgs, so I know it is possible once I make the decision to commit. That was 7 weeks ago.
At my absolute heaviest I weighed in at a SHOCKING 116.7kgs. I am mortified. I sank into a depression. I haven't bought new clothes in over a year because I cannot bear to buy jeans larger than an Australian size 18. I can get into an 18, but it causes the ever grotesque muffin-topping. After my detox, I reached 112.7kgs. I have since gained almost 2kgs and weight in currently at 114.6kgs.
I am now finally, after many tries, committing myself to finally make my weight loss journey. I have some new goals to keep me on track to think about daily.
I want to fit into size 12 clothes again.
I want to feel healthy and happy about myself.
I want to be able to run 5km without stopping.
I want to feel sexy wearing bathers or underwear.
I want to fuel my body with the best foods to help my body last longer.
I want to not wonder what I look like from certain angles.
I want to feel attractive again, especially when out with friends. Getting checked out really builds a girls self esteem.
I want to go shopping and come home happy with a bunch of new clothes I could fit into.
I feel like I have almost given up on the idea that I could be beautiful. I don't have a bad looking face, but now, it's overshadowed by my body. I am defined not as a person, but as a "fat person". The worst part is, in my own head I have defined myself as a "fat-person". But I am fighting this. I am surrounded by friends and family who tell me I am beautiful all the time. I believe it. I just need to believe in myself.
Also, I am full of fear.
Fear of failure.
Fear that if I succeed, I will have saggy skin all over.
Fear that I will gain it all back.
I am fighting these fears with every ounce of my being. I have to tell myself I can do it! If I have any excess skin then so what? I will save up and get surgery if I must, and once it's done, I son't want to go back.
I am a month away from turning 25. It's go time!
I am in the process of finding a personal trainer away from my work (I still do customer service at the gym I used to work at). It is unbelievably difficult to train where you work when overweight. These people see me every day. They are the ones who will judge me. I have claimed I am losing weight so many times I feel like the boy who cried wolf. SO I am doing it right. A personal trainer or regular boot camp sessions, a healthy eating plan (based on the detox as I know that it works and I have faith in it), and a supportive close knit group of people who know what I am doing and support me, including my mum, partner and best friend.
This of course includes anyone reading this blog. I'm not ready to take this public as far as social networking goes. Though I am sure once I reach my goal weight, I wont mind sharing it.
I am scared. I am determined. I am gassy... just kidding! (well the last one anyway). I really am determined. I feel as if every slip up I have had, every diet I have been on has been preparing me for this time. The time for talk is over. It's time for action.
My first goal:
To weigh 94.6kgs or less by christmas eve.
To commit to, and follow through with at least 3 personal training sessions or bootcamp sessions per week. Plus daily interval training(walking and jogging).
To follow our heathy eating plan at least 80-90% of the time.
It's just over 20 weeks to Christmas so thats just under a kilo a week. Totally doable!
I would love to feel comfortable enough to go take pole dancing lessons, go horse riding and start martial arts. Once I reach my goal, I will reward myself with one, or all of these activities.
This is a big commitment, it is going to be tough. BUT I will succeed. I must. I want to live my life to the fullest. No more stepping back. No more staying home. No more saying yes to unhealthy foods. No more avoiding exercise. No more negative mindset. No more excuses!
Life got in the way of my writing and weight loss journey. I haven't been on here in years, and quite frankly, after 6-12 months I forgot I even created this blog. Mostly due to the fact I gained weight, and was busy doing other things like saving to buy our first home and renovating our house.
I really hope everyone else has reached their goals and are living happy fulfilled lives.
My weight loss journey has turned into a weight gain journey and has created problems and worries for me. I am still with my partner of 6 years, who is still personal training. I however, gave up on personal training several years ago due to a high level of embarrassment.
Instead of having a series of inspiring weight loss photos I have a series of photos documenting my weight gain. Along with those I have my first ever stretch marks, unwanted cellulite and a chin that almost touches my chest when I lay down.
I am at my lowest point. I swore I'd never let myself get to this point. Ever. I used to think the more you weighed, the easier it is to lose weight. It is not. It gets harder.
We recently did a detox which included 2 weeks of nothing but fruit and vegetables, introducing some light proteins in week two. On this, I lost 4.5kgs, so I know it is possible once I make the decision to commit. That was 7 weeks ago.
At my absolute heaviest I weighed in at a SHOCKING 116.7kgs. I am mortified. I sank into a depression. I haven't bought new clothes in over a year because I cannot bear to buy jeans larger than an Australian size 18. I can get into an 18, but it causes the ever grotesque muffin-topping. After my detox, I reached 112.7kgs. I have since gained almost 2kgs and weight in currently at 114.6kgs.
I am now finally, after many tries, committing myself to finally make my weight loss journey. I have some new goals to keep me on track to think about daily.
I want to fit into size 12 clothes again.
I want to feel healthy and happy about myself.
I want to be able to run 5km without stopping.
I want to feel sexy wearing bathers or underwear.
I want to fuel my body with the best foods to help my body last longer.
I want to not wonder what I look like from certain angles.
I want to feel attractive again, especially when out with friends. Getting checked out really builds a girls self esteem.
I want to go shopping and come home happy with a bunch of new clothes I could fit into.
I feel like I have almost given up on the idea that I could be beautiful. I don't have a bad looking face, but now, it's overshadowed by my body. I am defined not as a person, but as a "fat person". The worst part is, in my own head I have defined myself as a "fat-person". But I am fighting this. I am surrounded by friends and family who tell me I am beautiful all the time. I believe it. I just need to believe in myself.
Also, I am full of fear.
Fear of failure.
Fear that if I succeed, I will have saggy skin all over.
Fear that I will gain it all back.
I am fighting these fears with every ounce of my being. I have to tell myself I can do it! If I have any excess skin then so what? I will save up and get surgery if I must, and once it's done, I son't want to go back.
I am a month away from turning 25. It's go time!
I am in the process of finding a personal trainer away from my work (I still do customer service at the gym I used to work at). It is unbelievably difficult to train where you work when overweight. These people see me every day. They are the ones who will judge me. I have claimed I am losing weight so many times I feel like the boy who cried wolf. SO I am doing it right. A personal trainer or regular boot camp sessions, a healthy eating plan (based on the detox as I know that it works and I have faith in it), and a supportive close knit group of people who know what I am doing and support me, including my mum, partner and best friend.
This of course includes anyone reading this blog. I'm not ready to take this public as far as social networking goes. Though I am sure once I reach my goal weight, I wont mind sharing it.
I am scared. I am determined. I am gassy... just kidding! (well the last one anyway). I really am determined. I feel as if every slip up I have had, every diet I have been on has been preparing me for this time. The time for talk is over. It's time for action.
My first goal:
To weigh 94.6kgs or less by christmas eve.
To commit to, and follow through with at least 3 personal training sessions or bootcamp sessions per week. Plus daily interval training(walking and jogging).
To follow our heathy eating plan at least 80-90% of the time.
It's just over 20 weeks to Christmas so thats just under a kilo a week. Totally doable!
I would love to feel comfortable enough to go take pole dancing lessons, go horse riding and start martial arts. Once I reach my goal, I will reward myself with one, or all of these activities.
This is a big commitment, it is going to be tough. BUT I will succeed. I must. I want to live my life to the fullest. No more stepping back. No more staying home. No more saying yes to unhealthy foods. No more avoiding exercise. No more negative mindset. No more excuses!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
At The Beginning
Hey guys,
This is Miss K's new blog. This is going to be a Diary of my weight loss journey. I hope that as I continue my journey I can help inspire others around me.
First of all I should explain my situation. I am a fully qualified personal trainer who has just gotten back into the industry and during my absence a fair bit of weight found a new home on my hips, thighs and stomach. Actually 30kgs worth of fat magically attatched itself to me(ok so eating bad food and not exercising... not so magic :S). The point is... I now weigh... *deep breath*
...91 kgs or about 200 pounds if you're american.(This is the first time I have openly admitted how much I weigh... truthfully) I started doing an hour of cardiovascular excercise every single day about 3 weeks ago. I started off at 93kgs so i have lost 2 since I began, and toned up a fair bit.
I'm on my way, and suddenly feel the need to share this with someone(or everyone who wants to read) So My plan is to set a series of goals for myself on here and report daily or so how I am going.
Today I got up early because I was donating blood, and you cant exercise after you donate blood. I was running late so I only did 45 mins on the bike(at the gym). I was however on levels 2 -5 and kept a steady 100rpm(revolutions per minute-thats nearly 2 rotations per second...but not quite) and hey, I worked up a sweat.
I drank more water then usual(because of the blood thing) and after i finished I had a grilled chicken sandwich and a banana. at the doner clinic I had some pineapple juice, and then for lunch I had turkey and salad sandwich and a diet coke.
So far so good. Since I began I find I have all the energy I used to, i fall into bed at night and go to sleep, and I'm never really bloated or sick feeling anymore. I forgot how good being healthy feels! I am attatching a photo of myself for comparison and I will do so every 4 weeks... STAY TUNED PEOPLES :)
PS. First goal= Fit into my old size 14(I'm a size 16 australian right now, I will get back down to size 10-12, and weigh 60 kgs-130pounds Before September Next Year) jeans by Australia day(or sooner) with no muffin top!! (muffin top=exactly what it sounds like, a huge bulge of fat hangingover your pants)
If anyone wants to join in.. Please feel free!! we can take the journey together, and doing it together helps everyone. Just comment me if you want to join in.
This is Miss K's new blog. This is going to be a Diary of my weight loss journey. I hope that as I continue my journey I can help inspire others around me.
First of all I should explain my situation. I am a fully qualified personal trainer who has just gotten back into the industry and during my absence a fair bit of weight found a new home on my hips, thighs and stomach. Actually 30kgs worth of fat magically attatched itself to me(ok so eating bad food and not exercising... not so magic :S). The point is... I now weigh... *deep breath*
...91 kgs or about 200 pounds if you're american.(This is the first time I have openly admitted how much I weigh... truthfully) I started doing an hour of cardiovascular excercise every single day about 3 weeks ago. I started off at 93kgs so i have lost 2 since I began, and toned up a fair bit.
I'm on my way, and suddenly feel the need to share this with someone(or everyone who wants to read) So My plan is to set a series of goals for myself on here and report daily or so how I am going.
Today I got up early because I was donating blood, and you cant exercise after you donate blood. I was running late so I only did 45 mins on the bike(at the gym). I was however on levels 2 -5 and kept a steady 100rpm(revolutions per minute-thats nearly 2 rotations per second...but not quite) and hey, I worked up a sweat.
I drank more water then usual(because of the blood thing) and after i finished I had a grilled chicken sandwich and a banana. at the doner clinic I had some pineapple juice, and then for lunch I had turkey and salad sandwich and a diet coke.
So far so good. Since I began I find I have all the energy I used to, i fall into bed at night and go to sleep, and I'm never really bloated or sick feeling anymore. I forgot how good being healthy feels! I am attatching a photo of myself for comparison and I will do so every 4 weeks... STAY TUNED PEOPLES :)
PS. First goal= Fit into my old size 14(I'm a size 16 australian right now, I will get back down to size 10-12, and weigh 60 kgs-130pounds Before September Next Year) jeans by Australia day(or sooner) with no muffin top!! (muffin top=exactly what it sounds like, a huge bulge of fat hangingover your pants)
If anyone wants to join in.. Please feel free!! we can take the journey together, and doing it together helps everyone. Just comment me if you want to join in.
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